Once You Were Gone…

I’ve always known since the very beginning, that once this happens, the whole world I built for myself will go dark, and I’d shudder at the thought of losing you. The thought that I might not see any light again and I’d be lost forever, without you there for me. Did I go blind? Or have you truly vanished before my eyes? I wonder what I should believe is true….It just makes me confuzzled; it makes no sense in fact! It seems like a complicated puzzle that I can’t put together and now as I lay on the ground, I’m hopelessly lost…

The moment you were gone, darkness overwhelmed the room. I was shaking. The curtains fluttered slowly, for the window was open. Yet, there wasn’t a slightest glimpse of light. As I tried to reach it, I fell. I almost couldn’t feel my body anymore. It was so cold, and I saw nothing but black spots, everywhere, darkening my vision with this everlasting darkness…maybe the incident made me really blind after all! Yeah, it’s not so easy to get over something which you once valued more than yourself. I stood up and once again I walked towards the breeze that came through the window. I couldn’t help it but tumble here and there. I almost broke a vase someone dear to me gave me, but nothing mattered at that time. I was like a baby learning how to walk. The only difference is that I knew how but couldn’t do it.

Finally, I reached the window and smelled the fresh air I needed. It still didn’t heal the wounds I got while trying to reach the window, and perhaps they’ll never heal, but at least I felt kinda safe; I felt once again alive, yet I might never have you again…

Now, I hope you realise how it is important for me to have you around, dear light bulb.